06-22-2015, 05:31 PM
for maybe half a year now, my boyfriend and i couldn't hang out with each other. we couldn't even message each other online or text, because his family members are terrible people(wouldn't let him use his phone, laptop, or even hang out with friends. he didn't do anything wrong, all he does is work and study for college). he's about to leave to another country in a few days, so his last day of work was yesterday. i told him to pretend he still has work for a few more days so he could at least come hang out with me before he leaves. his family was already getting mad and suspicious for never telling them when his last day of work is. today he decided to tell his family that he only works for half the day today, they don't believe him. my boyfriend would rather take a risk in telling an unbelievable lie(he's been working for the full 8hrs everyday, i doubt anyone would believe that his work decided to make him work for half a day) than spending the whole day with me. he told me he would still come, yeah ok. we now only have 2hrs 30mins left to actually be together. might be even less than that because he's still not here. i guess my bf doesn't love me like i thought he did.
i went to bed early yesterday so i could clean up everything, do my hair, and pick a stupid outfit to wear when we go out to eat. i even spent an hour in doing some make up and other things so i wouldn't look as horrible as i normally do on other days. i'm so freaken angry, like why doesn't he want to hangout with me for the whole day, does he really he hate me that much!? and why didn't he freaken tell me, or even his best friend about what he was going to tell his family today??? BOTH OF US COULD'VE TOLD HIM IT WAS A BAD IDEA. i just really hate myself right now. i wish i didn't get so excited and ready to see him today, so i wouldn't feel so disappointed, angry, and sad. i'm an idiot.
i went to bed early yesterday so i could clean up everything, do my hair, and pick a stupid outfit to wear when we go out to eat. i even spent an hour in doing some make up and other things so i wouldn't look as horrible as i normally do on other days. i'm so freaken angry, like why doesn't he want to hangout with me for the whole day, does he really he hate me that much!? and why didn't he freaken tell me, or even his best friend about what he was going to tell his family today??? BOTH OF US COULD'VE TOLD HIM IT WAS A BAD IDEA. i just really hate myself right now. i wish i didn't get so excited and ready to see him today, so i wouldn't feel so disappointed, angry, and sad. i'm an idiot.
(This post was last modified: 06-22-2015, 05:37 PM by justkillmenow.)